Rick (aka Tom Banjo), I have never met you but thanks for sharing.
You can do whatever you put your mind too (even if it should take a few attempts).
One day at time, one show at a time my friend.
Please read the lyrics to Phish's song 'Everything's Right' below. I found so much strength in these lyrics, perhaps you can find something in these words as well...
Time to get out, I've paid my dues
I need to shout there's no time to lose
No more to give, the well is dry
The pavements worn, my brain is fried
It's time to get out, I've paid my dues
My shoes have holes, my socks are bare
The mirror's secret is I'm losing my hair
I'm in prison without a crime, The sentence stretches on undefined
It's time to get out, I've paid my dues, I've paid my dues
But everything's right, So just hold tight
Everything's right, So just hold tight
I'm going downhill with increasing speed
And compassion gives way, if you listen to greed
Focus on the past and that's what will last
Nothing that is real and nothing you can feel
Focus on tomorrow you'll have to borrow
Images and mind and thoughts you've left behind
Focus on today and you'll find a way
Happiness is how, Rooted in the now
'Cause, everything's right, So just hold tight
Everything's right, So just hold tight
Look into the eyes of everyone you meet
Try not to step on your best friend's feet
The line is in the sand, the flag is planted
The rest of your life, Don't take it for granted
'Cause, everything's right, So just hold tight
Everything's right, So just hold tight
This world, this world,
This crazy world I know, It turns, it turns
And the long night's over and the suns coming up
Everything's right, It's gonna be alright!