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Hey guys, I have seen The Garcia Project, I have even been in touch with them to try and get better venues for the area I am in. These guys are the DSO of JGB. They sound absolutely phenomenal. Many of yall know I do not know the music in terms so many of you do. My only measure of music is how it makes my body dance and the energy that runs through it. These guys are the real deal and no joke. They may not look it, but did GD every look it? Ron Jeremy Playing Drums, Daisy Duke playing rythm, so classical musicist, throwing love bombs that are still bouncing off the ocean floor. MiK would be worth someone getting to know. I am posting this cause I saw the thread.....and know what I am talking about with these guys. I would go on tour with them. Actually my next post....I may go on tour....I may run away. Sorry Mik its been a rough months. I usually can give better words. Im fading.........one more post These guys are the real deal......support them and you will be happy you did!

two judges on "The Masked Singer" walked off after Rudy Giuliani unmasked himself at the end of a show taping, a source close to the show told CNN Wednesday. Hmm.....who silence who? Banned: Books on race and sexuality are disappearing from Texas schools in record numbers Society moves as a pendulum which also moves as a circle with---"Degrees of Freedom"!!!. Look at historical moments in society and culture. Lot of evidence suggest that people do not handle societal changes well when there are jolts of quick action. Hence...conservative. Conservatives believe change should be slow and weighed, as there are always unforeseen reactions to change. Liberals appear to implement haste change. A jolt to society. Move fast left, the pendulum swing further right--eventually.... look at the 60's similar reaction, although a strange one when you look at federal elections.... democrats started Vietnam War and it took Republicans to get us out. Ironic isn't it!!! We had Regan after Billy Beer......Nixon after the man who created our "Great Society". Why does Texas seem to cause these issues. Funny, it took a Virginian to create Texas.....but maybe that's why there is controversy all these years later!!! I really thought many Dead Heads would know a whole lot more about history. It would bring so much more depth when listening to the music!! ALWAYS BEWARE OF GOVERNMENT CURES!!!!!! Don't care if its right or left.....if our government has a cure, weigh the knowledge of history that you have...if you don't have that knowledge remain ignorant of current times!!!

Line, Sinker and Hook!! Did not see Rogan pulling his show because of the music played on a third party app--or even requesting another party remove their productions because of ideological purposes---Its clearly one sided---not sure how your argument works here Rude. https://www.uspresidentialelectionnews.com/2022/02/johns-hopkins-study-lockdowns-and-closures-had-no-affect-on-covid-19-deaths/ No effect on Covid-19 deaths, but devasting effects on children kicked out of school for a couple of years and a good portion of the adult population still dealing with depression and angst from having their lives blown up. With all the restrictions, mandates, and control coming from the government at numerous levels, this study from Johns Hopkins University finds a collective impact of less than 1% on the Covid-19 death rate. Actually, saying it’s around 1% is generous. The real number they came up with was an improvement of… 0.2%. Was it worth it to set children back in years of education for a 0.2% improvement in Covid-19 deaths? Some people would say yes, and those people are free to stay in self-lockdown for the rest of their lives. The results are quite grim actually, what did we give up as a society for a 0.2% improvement on Covid-19 mortality: “We find no evidence that lockdowns, school closures, border closures, and limiting gatherings have had a noticeable effect on COVID-19 mortality,” the researchers wrote. But the research paper said lockdowns did have “devastating effects” on the economy and contributed to numerous social ills. “They have contributed to reducing economic activity, raising unemployment, reducing schooling, causing political unrest, contributing to domestic violence, and undermining liberal democracy,” the report said. John Hopkins must be one of the Republican funded University!!! Trump was in charge during lockdown and should bear the responsibility of creating this problem. I am self-interested here-----bit upset this whole thing caused less DSO play dates. Forgive me on the nonpartisan approach, but don't f... with the music!!!!! When Russia invades Ukraine, you know what gas prices are going to do? Some of you have tons of funds, some others look at cost/show ratios. $4.00 gallon gas sucks!!! Its why this stuff is relevant when you are itching to see DSO perform--more and more!!!! Be funny if the virus just disappears through mutation. If that happens, could anyone say trump was wrong it just disappeared? The irony in reading journals that now say the same thing....they just don't know yet, cause somehow following the science just means more changes and guesses!!! Love this music with all its ironies (example--JGB being church for many faithful despite the person leading the sermon---Was Jerry mocking Christianity with Sisters and Brothers, Gamora, I will be with thee, Palm Sunday, Waiting for a Mircle, We Bid you Goodnight..etc) and truths, but it took decades, and I am sure more decades to find the ever changing meanings into something simplified, predictable(standardized).....There are times when you live in doubt!!! There are times when you get hit upon Try hard but you cannot give Other times you'd gladly part With what you need to live Don't waste the breath to save your face When you have done your best And even more is asked of you Let fate decide the rest Would you miracle a republican? Would you miracle Anne Coulter? I would definitely give Anne Coulter the miracle of life---if you know what I mean!!! Is it called trolling when you bait? maybe that's what they mean when you go trolling around the lake structure trying to catch a fish. Utopia is a world without controversy. What did we get out of the controversy of the 60's? Without it.... where would all of us be now? Don't ignore disagreement as the He's Gone you prefer to discuss would of never existed without controversy!! Celebrating it rather than demonizing or running away from it does not bring about creation, innovation, or the God Damn Grateful Dead!!!! 😍If it was not for difference I would of never hoped on any of these buses!!!

Spotify Won't Pull Joe Rogan – But Comedian 'Open To Change' And Even Issued Apology To Neil Young Joe Rogan also took to social media platform Instagram on Sunday, where in a nearly 10 … Forbes · 2h Hmmm....all I can say..... A southern man don't need him around anyhow!!!!!! It is ironic that names from the 60's and 70's are trying to silence alternative thinking voices. Not sure why the CDC has continually changed their stance on Covid 19, variants, vaccines, and other protocols. They are following the science and similar to minds, we all know science never changes----because if it did---why would anyone follow the science if its always changing its mind? Anyone else find it odd for the push of others to conform to what the government wants us to do? That same government we all trust, love, and follow mindlessly because it knows best. To embrace the pharmaceutical industry which we all know exist for our best interest? Of course----less oxycodone. It only took 30 years for the government to cash in a second time with billion-dollar fines against the finest cure ever made!!! What is freedom? Nothing left to lose? What do the unvaccinated lose? Their life? Is that not freedom, a choice to live or die? Is that not the ultimate freedom? Personally, I think we should all be treated like sheep. Like military. Line up and drink whatever kool aide government says is good for you. We all know, the government knows best!!! Blind faith is important when dealing with the US government. How any of us do not trust the government and the pharmaceutical industry surprises me. These institutions are absolutely the finest, most honorable, honest, forthright, and calculating entities on the planet. Its amazing for me that there are actual people in this country who feel their body is autonomous. Every man who is a national citizen by threat of force must sign up with the selective service. Thank God women are not allowed to sign up for selective service, as we all know women are not as capable!!! Who would even think of discriminating against gender, race, or religion, and sexual orientation? A man who feels like he is a women should also be separated into a separate class of citizen by not having to sign up for selective service. What women would want to go to war. Men love it...war is a blast, especially when you come back home and spat on by your wonderful neighbors and other citizens!! I wish I was young enough to volunteer again for military service. I really want to go back to Eastern Europe...but with a United States uniform. Our country is always right and should be followed blindly into battle. If we only destroyed all of Vietnam and Cambodia, could we now not have to deal with AOC or Pelosi. 40 years of cold war, we finally get to fight a more democratic Russia with our more socialist ideology. Does not matter -----Europe still cannot protect itself....why would they...our government knows all and has shown successfully how right we are throughout historic conflicts!!! Pelosi should thank General Stonewall Jackson and General Robert E Lee for her position. California was once Mexico before these racists took it for the United States. Not sure why we don't give it back along with reparations. Those who have trepidations about the vaccine..... please reconsider, your government says so, which makes it right!!!!! For those who are patriotic and American loving people---Please continue to silence anyone and everyone who may have a different view. Silence them---remove them from platforms. Force the opposition down. If they hold rally's or display any public support, destroy them as they don't think like you and must be removed or silenced. You will not survive on your own otherwise. There is nothing you can do to protect yourselves from these anarchists. They are destroying the very fabric of society for which YOUR government affords you the right to live in!!!!!! I wonder----how much does the company who produced polio and smallpox vaccine now make? Citizen susceptibility to government in times of chaos drastically decreases. Less control means more autonomy----especially after the Inserection by a few thousand citizens. Russia has over 100,000 troops bordering Ukraine, and we are sending several thousand troops. Those Russian soldiers must be pretty week compared to our few thousand citizens!!! Oh Yea---those places that actually defunded the police----Record decrease in violent crimes!!! Like record decrease in crimes overall. Its amazing how governments can take acute public sentiment and quickly create utopias...and in only a year or two. So proud of America and what it now stands for. Solid like a rock!!! Somehow, I still feel, a southern man don't need him around anyhow!!!! Tocqueville for me, appears to have a point!!

T, its amazing how much we grow when we lose. How much we gain through loss, how much loss makes us feel when those nuggets of joy are given for us to experience. Sorry about ruff times and the fate of life. At times it seems its never ending. Perpetual cycles of ups and downs or constant downs. Hits you harder when your down, then hits you again till you become numb to all the blows. From dreary and cold nights of winter comes the rebirth of spring, to the long days of summer, back again through the strange nights of fall. Life is seasonal, but not always on time. Sometimes those seasons last months, year, years, a decade or two. Not always sure time heals but it does offer reflection, growth, and a sense of peace going through the worse accepting the tides, being more cautious, and eventually being wiser and more accepting as you experience more of the same. Steps to make you stronger to face a always not so beautiful world. But---with out the darkness there would be no light. Peace be with you brother. You will certainly carry some load, but time will allow you to shed the weight. Just as a caterpillar sheds its cocoon. The experience is part of the change inside. Your a good soul, keep that to heart as you bear the burdens. Little bit of music certainly helps. Support from friends and Jerry/Hunter words that seem to already know how you feel. Keep dancing....glad you got some music. Hope you get more. Take time for yourself T!! The ones you love will be better off with the time you take for yourself!!!

That is for sure a star studded list. Wow!!! Three nights in the same gold circle. Glad to know your in the know. Scotty plays his ass off. Absolutely floored by how well he and mango--with others--performed at black mountain. I imagine Covid has only honed their inner talent. Would love a invite to come by and mingle for the after party. As a heads up---years have changed---not the same as I was when hopped on this bus. No worries about behavior. Rick on the other hand---Just Kidding!! Happy to hear the lord bought Velvet a Mercedes Benz. I am sure she had some work in it!!! That's awesome. Herdy is creeping out of the Laramide Orogeny uplift-----that's good stuff. Word travels fast when venues are good. Music at Frederick was kind and the sound impeccable for outside venue--for any venue. Early show at that. It will be day time when the shuttle lifts off!!! I have not danced in the day since last I saw you August. That was outside of DC---Wolf Creek I believe. Maybe a Jubilee----no matter, be nice to shake hands and give a hug. If Covid allows or the comfort be. They supplemented and ended with a kick ass Tangled that day at Wolf Mountain!!! I know the original crew talks, mingles, and keeps up with each other. There are two sides to everything and it is absolutely wonderful it continues. I often don't come around here no more, but every so often I need to jazz up and cause controversy. Cant have Rude always take the show. You guys are more than likely what helped start and keep the tradition with tour and dance. DSO is lucky to have you, as we are lucky to have them!!! Will always be grateful for the encouragement when there was no light. Not even a tunnel. I now know Fredericks is going to be lit up with good people and dedicated members of a bigger family. Warmest of Regards!!! Thanks for chiming in August. Sincere appreciation!!

Hmmm... Herdy Gerdy and Velvet Thunders b-days today. Have not seen either in a very long time. Guess Velvet is enjoying German Alps, while Herdy has dropped off the map. Two people who I know loved and supported DSO from its early days. Wish both a happy B-day. Hoping both are doing well and doing what they love. Remember Herdy Jam in the Sand-----all I can say is smurfs----nothing more funny!!! Except when Rob B saw me helping Resort security get into a balcony room. Nothing more awkward than security standing on your shoulders to enter a room. What happened to master key? Big place and not enough time to get in to make sure someone was ok. Some people find themselves in places they do not want to be but are there because they are the person who should be--at that moment. What a ride that year was. Velvet---always has had her own beat to drum. A friend tells a funny story of picking her up from airport in the south. Sitting on the corner playing a mandolin. The kind of scene you saw when the circus was in town. It was the time when DSO drawled me in. A semblance of when the original played. Not strange, but different was around. It was a always that safety net you felt. The excitement to know your brothers and sisters were around. Happy B-day to both!!!

When one respires like I do---like all of you do, there is no one mask during a show. Mask replacement for each song. Mask get water logged. Respiration produces what? Water vapor. Simple glucose + oxygen → carbon dioxide + water + energy released----- Its a no brainer!! Common Sense. Depends on what DSO plays. Early GD or late GD. Bring 15-26 mask. Not mocking you brother, but you bring a good point up.

1.9 trillion. That's nothing. Who cares about zeros? We should spend 10 trillion and bring in Mexico and all of middle America. Non-violent cartels. Some think there was a insurrection with a couple thousand. Lets bring in millions!!! World is changing faster and faster. Pepe La Poo is now a rapist. Dr. Sues is racist, and Megan Markel is an African American though whiter than myself. Being under educated, I am simply a simple man. My lenses are blurred. Spent a year with Covid business interruption claims. Spent hours listening to small business owners cry because they lost their whole life's work. Some, phones disconnected. Could never finish the claim. Cuomo is fighting Me too-----Allegations for a politician is damning. Who cares if there founded. All you need is a media to tell us under educated people what is right and wrong. My mother who is 78 with underlying conditions has yet to get a call to be vaccinated. Happy smokers get in front of the line. Its the American way!! Small businesses who can not afford closing should be penalized. Large corporations who can afford government bond buys should be set to grow bigger. The world is set for electric cars----how do we get electricity? Fossil fuels? Any thought about next generation lithium batteries? Hopefully China can produce better and better solar cells. Hydrogen Fuel Cells---ocean is full of hydrogen and oxygen!! Wait, does it not take more energy to split covalent bonds than we get back. Thermal dynamics? Nuke power plants? Fast breeders?---Hopefully molten salts work out. Bill Gates worked with China on those projects. Damn Trump administration shut that down---China moved forward---- Something about intellectual property given access to the next Super power. China buying our agricultural industry, as a means to keep feeding Americans. Somehow I reflect back to Lola. Girls will be boys and boys will be girls It's a mixed up, muddled up, shook up world, except for Lola. I no longer extend my civic duty to vote. At some point, you have to withdraw from the game so your soul no longer has a part in the fall. Cop out----maybe---but would rather watch from the sidelines then have a hand in the mess. Ironic-----how far we all drive to see music. Fly to see music. Extend the resources the pollution, yet feel compelled to support green initiatives. All is good when we ourselves feel good. One side or the other, in the end, we have to look at ourselves. Our actions. Our complacency or our compliance. Mask do remove human expression. 90% of communication is body language. Simple domesticated dogs get that. Our loyal companion that assisted with the evolution of modern day society. Somehow we do not get that. So smart we are...our leaders even more in touch with our daily lives. We allow for hypocrisy---if its our side. Instead of wishing for the world to have a Coke with pretty endangered polar bears---who would bypass the coke, and just eat you if had the chance----I wish for individual thought that is not aligned with a two party system that has failed original intent. Self governance by "educated" people. I do not mean those educated by current institutions!!. I have enough of those degrees---but COMMON SENSE!!! Common has now become in its own right, non sensical. To busy to be common, to bullied to express "Common Sense". Common sense is now labeled---and if you are one of those labels, God Bless you---oops---I used God-----easier to use the parables from a book of common sense. Don's steal, don't lie, don't sleep around(you might get dieses), don't murder, etc..... Essentially a backdrop for common sense. Inclusion------why does DSO not have NWA open up for them--vice versa? Could we all mix together peacefully? Would it be peaceful? Hard questions, difficult thoughts, unless your media driven, and its all black and white. No pun intended. This post is only a mockery of ourselves and our nation----IT'S US BLUES!!!!!!!

Thoughts with you for your loss brother. Memories will heal the loss, but it will never be forgotten. Mothers are true blessings despite ourselves. Love between Mother and Son is probably the strongest in all of the universe. Take time between the sorrow and grief to celebrate the life and her impact on yours!!

showing my era with this post-----still 20 years to late for where I should of been. Would rather be 66 than 46 right now if I could of spent the time 20 years prior. I love this song I just posted. How could Men with out hats and a midget make me smile? How did this song hit me before I even learned of GD? How does this mix in with Maslow's hierarchy? Well....how do you feel dancing to the Dead? GD, DSO, Further....when your dancing to the music, this music, how do you feel? I have, at times, felt my scariest thoughts and confronted them dancing to a China Doll, Attics, Sing me back home, So many roads..etc...... Such thoughts and internal confrontations in front of 10s of thousands down to only 6---the six was DSO sound checking in Jamaica when everyone else was eating. I was dancing in the sand, alone, but not lonely. Sure we share energy, but to dance alone in front of DSO was a rariety......I did not need to share and it felt good to be selfish. To have that stage all to my own. Chills up my spine as my hands type. The Music has always been my safety dance. Ironic it took discovering the magic of this music to understand safety dance. Life is so regimented. Society constrains-----our rituals constrain further----oddly many of us still jump right in and still believe in many outdated social rituals------I was embarrassed during my wedding---standing in front of people I have known my whole life, family, and another persons family that I allowed into my world. I can not remember a time I was ever embarrassed in front of Dead Heads. I have been other emotions, but embarrassed, I can not remember. We can dance, we can dance ----- We can dance like we come from out of this world and leave the real one far behind. Well, every time I dance at shows, I leave the real one far behind. From day 1, I felt safe doing so. There is not 1 of these needs that was not fulfilled at any show I have ever been over the past 32-33 years. If anything, this pyramid has been filled completely only at shows. Days Between----when phantom ships with phantom sails set to sea on phantom tides. Days Between. Life is a dance, an exchange of who we are presented to those who see.......I rarely dance to the days between, the days between has never completed the pyramid. No wonder why we give up so much to feel that fullness!!! The safety dance-----a dance I have only felt at shows.

The Wheel into China Doll---that sums up a lot----confliction, motives, actions, keeping up, giving up, trying to hang on with a slow silence of heavens bells and the thunderous movement of a life in motion. Through it all I just wished I was a head light on a north bound train. The Thai say same same but different---in Thai of course. Not sure if I am to be sad of earth shattering shared expereinces that are same but different, or if I am to be happy someone else survived through that type of hell. I lean towards the latter----I believe we have crossed paths Greg. I want to say T for Texas brought a introduction. I appreciate your thank you and reciprocate. 6 feet---50----3000miles----hugs is love----Been a long year of distance----Summer will come...the season to dance again will be laid before our nimble toes and the wings we all need to spread.....I spent the whole day with the window open and GD at volume 10!!! My neighbors have not seen me in 8 months-----but today the heard me, and whom ever looked through my window saw a dancing man happy to move!!!

It now does seem to be in rotation. I heard a glimpse of it in 2017--maybe 2018. I did not know what I was hearing, but a Carolina feller, now retired, came up to me with raised eyebrows and excited expression. "Man, that sounded like a low spark tease". Being me, a man----I dare not share that I had no clue what he was talking about. Low spark? Are you flipping kidding me? The show being played was a 68:}----- Probably the best show I have ever heard. Less that 69 we got at Jubilee. You remember, they started playing Mountains of the Moon---and we all were a bit transformed into a OMG, what is going to happen? Was one of the last times our paths crossed. Hope that will be corrected sooner than later. We all have those we look up to for various reasons. We also remember the exchange that elevated that person to which you appreciate the gold inside the soul. Granted, all that glitters is not gold, but at times what does glitter is gold especially when that person knows all you know and then some. Mr. Vegas is true gold, and his mind will weigh deep in your own when you realize your own depth may not be as deep as those of others, and there is still some distance to go. From John Ford to Focualt------from Talking Heads to the limitless depths of the Dead. True understanding of the world is a understanding of, or at the very least exposure to history, art, society, law and science----You have to work at this. It does not come to you---you have to search it out for yourself-----My dyslexia gets me at times----so I will use someone else words: Wise people generally share an optimism that life's problems can be solved and experience a certain amount of calm in facing difficult decisions. Intelligence may be necessary for wisdom, but it definitely isn't sufficient; an ability to see the big picture, a sense of proportion, intellectual humility, and considerable introspection ....wisdom can be acquired only through experience, but by itself, experience does not automatically confer wisdom----and from that, I offer thanks to one of the wise men of our community. Low Spark, well, another door opened and another lens to see. She never destroyed me, she allowed passage back to myself. Thanks for being part of that catalyst Brother V!!!!

WOW----TR------you have done so much with this place since I first logged in. I have not had time to read through past words, but I hope your getting the support you need and more!!! Find a place---its awkward when you yourself are awkward, but this place is a place where awkward no longer is awkward but rather, a celebration of the inner excitement and the strange that comes with enjoying productions by Merry Pranksters-GD--Zen Tricksters------>DSO------> Days of strange with Novel being novel, at least since 1918. Seclusion to a recluse. Hidden behind walls, covered faces, expressions lost by vails. Its nice to bring back winks to show favor of personal flavor. Nothing more kinder this year then spinning with a lop sided belly to wonderous sounds that pierce the soul---Remember how you cried the day of your first born----Impactful---you will always remember. Life out of the movement of two bodies becoming one creating another. Its poetry in motion---Its beauty we all celebrate in the ways we like the most. Soon there after--the late nights--no sleep---the dirty diaper changes---the efforts, finances, sacrifices to make that act into a person we will always see as beautiful in our eyes no matter their failures or successes. We will still love because of the energy we give---despite the ups and downs--somehow that rollercoaster makes us closer, love more, and allows us to care beyond what we ever cared for previously. -----Sound like tour? Less the diapers? For some----we got 1 on the way, and for some reason, I think some of us may change a diaper or two over the next couple years. How Rude!! Most of us know and have a understanding or some hint of the interconnectedness of life. To be born again in the witness of thousands---to be one way, and that night turn into something else. To walk down that crazy lot and into a isle ---- to fully open you self up to something larger than yourself. Its a birth into something greater than yourself. Its love making with the moves and grooves of many. Its a product that would not be unless enjoyed with others. Its enough at times to make you cry with all the emotions you ever had or will have. A release of the deepest seeded feelings that a person can experience outside of the creation of life itself. A sacred bond shared by those we choose to love. A wise Doctor once told me, we are a dysfunctional family that choose to be family. We were not born into it--we searched for it----the meaning of it----to much to understand on our own, so we connect with others to share how it effects ourselves, only to find, it effects strangers the same way. Over time, those strangers became friends, and from friends, became family. Family, that on multiple occasions drove an extra 5-10 hours to get me home, when I missed a train. When your girl got mad and left you in a rural area with no rentals, planes or trains. The existential family stepped in and delivered you back to where you belong. I have family on here. I am lucky I searched and found individuals I will love forever, and despite me, will love me forever. People outside of us, have asked--- "why is going down the road feeling bad fun".....Me Mom--in particular-----Why is bad so glad----because---- stuck in a car melting away was not enough for a soul to leave area of the best sound just to attempt to pry my ass out of the car to share in our ritual dance. The ritual is not ours as if we own it, but the shared experiences and joy of sharing it with each other and everyone else is as close as I will ever get to the tears and the joyous feeling of my first born. ----Brother C---you did not get me out of the car---but I danced with you the same. Spirit is not always as real as shaking bones, but its as big if not bigger----thank you for trying!!!! Military----when you work through it all, you grow with some ---you know in your mind why honor, valor, and courage is respected. Its because you realize, you would actually give your life for someone you know who would do the same for you---you become connected in ways typical friendship does not offer---or even allow. The comradery----sounds light years away from this type of "Hippy" forum---but its as close as it could ever be. I came here lost, trying to find some semblance of normalcy, peace, acceptance---answers----The answers found me when I was not looking. ------There is a road, no simple highway between the dawn and the dark of night and if you go, no one may follow That path is for your steps alone You who choose to lead must follow but if your fall you fall alone if you should stand, then who's to guide you? If I knew the way, I would take you home. There is no path home but the path home you make for yourself. No one can answer those questions so deep and personal---even if you share. The beauty of it is ownership of your choices, but the love in it is the help our family gave to keep a dead man walking. The support to help a wounded brother. The understanding that we all fall. To fall is human, to seek answers is human, to step back and offer support in the journey to help someone find those paths, well------that's love in its purist form. Family kept a float a wandering soul, disheartened, disillusioned, numb, near no mercy, and the death that would of followed. Awkward---huh? lil bit---Openly shared a world of despair. Everyday, like the panhandler on the street. Just looking for little nuggets to hold on to. Something to bring back meaning to the feelings. Oddly, found it in the Ruddiest of places. Younger Cosmic offered a hand, followed by some Texas Tea, wrapped by some locally hated Reynolds out of the Carolina Contingent, and smoothed over by chance meetings with a northern Cave Doctor on some Caribbean island stuck with another confused child of Mason---who has grown as much as myself over the years--near a decade. Teacher up north and a pizza brother in Jersey who no longer frequent-- I dont forget the nights you reached out worried. What a quick synapsis of years past that seems like yesterday. There was some sweet Mango in between along with deep wisdom out of Vegas-----yea, I know, there is more to Vegas than glitter and gold!!! I will end this story with some of biggest offering of thanks---TR......Thanks T Ron----you offered confidence to a pure heart when awkward was at its height---All I wanted was to jump back on the bus, so badly it scarred some that were already riding. Anyone, anywho, anywhere else, the troubles would of been turned away, dismissed, and never thought about again. Not here----Not with these people. my 2nd GD show----so drunk despite help, they were throwing me out. Alone, helpless, all my funds and material out for some to prosecute, others to profit, and for me to loose was kept close and hidden by strangers who left 1st set of the show to care for me. Staid with me in the lot until those I was with found my near lifeless body. I do not know who those strangers were, individually, but I know them now as our family. The same family who I annoyed, pestered, and ultimately shared with the darkest moments of my life--openly, with out embarrassment----as I knew from days past, when I lost my wings---and could not fly, others would fly to me and so they did, and so I get to write this random with a smile on my face. God Bless Jerry Bless -----I am truly thankful, I am thankful for your peace, your patience, and your understanding. You are a community of brothers and sisters that choose each other!! You are family, and I am thankful to always be part of it!!! Thanks for bringing me water when I preferred beer. LOVE YALL!!!

New set up old names. Amongst the confusion of upgrade it was nice to see familiarity. Nice to read of the reunion of dates. The remeberence of the first circus ride. A throw of the unexpected, the first time. Not as good as it could be, but the best it would ever be. First are always something to reflect on. Age catches up, memerories fade, but the ones we keep, we cherish. I cherish mine. I cherish many....no regrets of a weekend missed, as the bus always idles for those waiting to hop back on. Pauses for the right reasons makes it sweeter when we go back to where we belong. Nice to read the post. No more cavey but change is the only constant. Hope all.yall are doing well. It's a strange place to be knowing where your started. A big thanks to many here. Walked me through hell, forgave my stumbles, and encouraged so many times with keep.on growing at the balck.mountain. my song to rest. And rest we need at times. Regroup, reevaluate, and fight for the beauty of the love we bring. The comfort of knowing it's always here. It moves on with out you, but allows you to come.back on. A continuum....ever last lasting, or at least built to. Carolina contingent. I second thought myself, but ...little league Saturday is more precious. Happy to come back and share my silly words, but more happy to come back and read yours. Stability....and to think we find it in the same but different. Every show, every night. Will make a jubilee a priority. Be nice to dance with you fine people again. To flail. Makes calves tighten just thinking about it. You know my love is not fade away. Happy spring, rebirth, enjoy your back yard carolina!! Sorry. Wants no longer out weigh needs, but eventually need to take a load off. Go hang out with carmin....and go spend some time loosing my twenties ...closer to 50. As always, it makes sense to me....to others, to some, it's in and out, as the garden grows and the sunshine knows, the laughing water, maybe more will eventually get me out the door. Get out of the way, splintered light will indeed come back one day!! Love yall!! How I became other love I dont know, it used to be going back where...... prior sun1869, I guess time does change all. Name change is common for me.

https://youtu.be/MiZZcYiScAc Signing on from Georgia these days. Atlanta, the New York of the south. Be nice to get a dso run down these parts. 1 mile away from the chattahoochee, I can see why that muddy water meant some to some.... Its fun to see these gd dance remakes. I see so much of soul train and other moves like PF in mine and your alls dance. I think all yall dance better, but the link is all I got at the moment, so I thought to share. Missing the music, missing yall. I really dont want to grow up, because I am a Jerry's kid, but now currently cloaked like superman in slacks and a tie. A girl at worked laughed at me yesterday, said it was cute how innocent I was;)!!! It's funny how and who we can be with out the restraints of previous knowledge. So why not always dance like monkey with those arms extended from the get go, at any show. It will always be normal if that's how you start!!

Why are the best all spoken for? To love words more than bodies, to have both. Depth is a rarity in my simple world of VBSD. A affliction all towns have. It's a Social Disorder. It's funny how childhood memories and experiences propel one forward. To remove the constraints of the isolated and strangeness of formative years. To try and be cool because you never were, until you found a traveling tribe of your own kind. I will always have feelings of inadequacy, but it's why I dance so open with the tribe you speak of. I can never be less than with people I love more than. Mental blocks still exist....perhaps its reason for over compensation. But to overcompensate with tribal rhythm is a freedom I wish for everyone!! Words impress more than a kiss, and I watched a bronx tale last night. It was a random, but now I know why it was not a random. Quantum realms offer clues why our nose itches when we are thought of or talked about. But, it does not always have to be a itchy nose. It could be something much deeper, and it usually is with this crowd. Most everyone wants to be cool once in their life. It's a bit ironic to find that coolness in the heat of the music, and the vibration of bodies dancing to the sweet sounds we all love. Warmest regards, and smiles for miles and miles!!!

Omg. The way the light shined, it look like that sunny guy is going bald. Reality, not Grace Kelly, or Bettie Davis, but still super hot with out words, and only with expression. As I wrote. The gifs come from masters. Second reality, stress produces dht. Testosterone, breaks down into dht.....men with drives at mid 40 liken to 18 year olds, might worry a bit about dht, as it attacks hair folicals. How does it happen you grow more hair on your ears then your head. It was all fun and games until the video link, which I just really looked at. I have seen my elders. They dance with passion and past. I respect those before me, but I never thought I might be those before others. What do you do when you cant do as you want? At what age do men think they are not 20? Or does that even happen. I have literally sat and watched, with amazement, the energy of others before me at shows. Hmmmm.. hmmmm..... hmmmm.... speechless and scared. What happens when the body cant keep up with the mind? I just got over the mind fuck of reality....now on to the physical fuck of the mind? Vegas, not Grace Kelly, no Bettie Davis eyes, but the expression is worth more.than any words can offer!!! That link smacked me hard tonight. Vanity....a whole new meaning of life!!!

I am reading back, and am confused. please dont tell me you all draw straws on who sleeps with sunny? Dont care what Cosmic says. Bangladesh street walkers smell much better these days. And, sunny always takes a three hour, maybe drown in the tub, shower post show. Wouldn't be fun if it wasn't weird!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BmhG1whgMvp/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=137e737lpbigi It's every show, and I have learned to feed off of it. What I do realize, you never look as cool as you feel, and the cute smiles, and the butt rubs are really just laughs, and invitations; because women also think after a few drinks men around here start looking good!! Fuck....I wanna wanna, but i got to admit, i cant continue onna...

I hate to say, but I remeber that night, day, weekend!! I.miss you all. I miss black.mountain. I hate adult stuff. I wanna be a kid with money forever!! On the other hand, and I hope I dont seem narrasistic, bloated, or full of myself, as I have been labeled all.the above, with a fierce definitive, but, I swear, I wake up every morning with special powers, talents, and gifs!! The powers from the morning juice, the talent, my ability to roll my tounge in places....:).........and the gifs T or Vegas always supply!! I think I can consider myself well rounded!! But...I missed black mountain, again. Love yall kind folk. Please be safe and have a real good time!!!

Just wanted to let many of you know how much I miss you. No need to name the individuals, you all know who you are. It feels like a curse to love, it is a sword that can be a curse, but it's also a sword that protects, projects the beauty of what it means to be human, what it means to care, to miss, and to want to reconnect. I hope I can reconnect here soon. I have plans for it, but even if love is real, plans can still fade. I heard a voice yesterday I have not heard in a long while. You made me smile brother. Despite out differences, I still love you. I passed through Atlanta for work. I got to stay with a person I truly admire and respect. He and his wife fed me, shared with me drinks, I nearly watched him fall in his lake. 10% ipa will do that. But he reminded me how this music has given me friends that I will always have, love, and cherish. TR once shared with me the power of these forms. Being me, I thought I knew what he meant, but being me, I foolishly did not truly understand the depth of his words. Through laughter, experiences, love, and defeat, I now understand how beautiful it all really is. How beautiful this place is, how beautiful you all are. Thank you DSO, thank you TR, and thank you beautiful people for enriching my life!! Though distant these days, for reasons many of you know about, I am still here and with you all in my heart, and I know many of you feel the same. We can get off the bus, but the bus still always waits for us to get back on. With out love in the dream, it will never come true. Thanks for keeping my dreams alive through all the love and support offered. Your starheads are most certainly the best of the best, and I am lucky to still have the light shine on even the darkest star!! Thank you!!

Around here we call it the Tidewater. Hampton is one of the murder capitals of the world. Reasons extend into the history of the civil war books. With bad, comes the good, and though my mind had yet to truley wrap around the music of the Warlocks, due to close proxcimity of my living situation and my inclination towards travel, abuse, and the extreme desire to do what my parents did not want me to do,......I too got the Warlocks. Got two other shows there, and i think 2 JGB's. The recordings reveal to me more majic than i was able to understand, but thanks for the knowledge that we might of bumped into each other PG. If we did.....i was not yet dancing like a person who cared more about the music than the thoughts of those watchin me, but it was shows like this that created the spark of okism in my now presentstion enjowed with DSO. Time passes, i was 13 at that time. Only 6ft then, as the ritilan stunted my growth, so says mom, but it still hit with a force. More so from the crowd and excitement than the words ripped, and the slicing sounds of musical bliss. Easy to get lost in this morning, but a smile indeed produced. Thanks for a shared memory, even though its shared 27 years later. Where did the time go?

And these words are why we boys need a poet around. Love is best when shared, and I most definitely share it with those on this page....and then some. Thanks for being the good souls the world needs for a better place!!! Love y'all back......would say the moon and back, but I think I met most of you at the mars hotel!!