Masons Child

Looks like Whitney and I will do some shows coming up. Losing Jamaica this year really dampened my spirit. Then losing Bobby. I need some DSO. 2 Oakland 3 Colorado here.

Still reeling. it has no mercy. on way to property in Costa Rica with a heavy heart.

I remember Brian spending a little time at a place I lived on lookout mountain in Colorado. Despite it being near freezing in temperature, he found himself a nice sunny spot to layout on the mountain side shirtless. His spirit and light burned so brightly and full of warmth he wasn’t cold at all. Just forever smiling. It was a joy to know him. Whenever you found yourself in his presence, his joy was contagious you could not help but smile smile smile.

Literally saw this one minute ago when I loaded google as part of my google suggested articles. NBC reported. Came here as soon as I managed to dry my eyes. Bobby carried Jerry’s legacy like no one else. The band is getting back together in heaven. Bobby Jerry Phil and all the keys you could ever need. RIP Bobby Words can not explain your importance to my world.

So I definitely feel like Jeff and the rest of the band but Jeff in particular brought some extra gusto and spirit to the music to make up for the absence of friend and band mate Mr. Eaton. I’m not saying the Splintered guy doesn’t have some chops of his own but Eaton is a powerhouse on the stage and magical force playing this music. DSO made sure they still delivered the DSO product, a Grateful Dead experience. I can’t say enough about the Visions. It was a good as I’ve heard ever including Jerry versions and what I used to consider the best visions ever JKs delivery at Allgood. His vocals trembled with emotion. His guitar work shook me to the very core of my existence. For a moment I was suspended in a space and time where Whitney was gone and could envision what it would feel like to have to continue on in her absence.

And Tea Disney is a mixed bag of emotions and thoughts. I want you to know the music and the Disney trip down the rabbit hole last night has created really wonderful and positive psychedelic delusions that couldn’t be mistaken as truth and truths that could be written off as delusions. The type of trip that brings one such ever lasting positive impacts and opens the possibilities for spiritual growth. Transcendence. Movement towards Terrapin (Nirvana). I have a lot to say but my phone activity on rides is bothering the family so if I remember more later,

We only made it for second set. We in Orlando at Disney for Delilah’s 7th birthday 3 hour drive down 3 hour drive back. Some may think for one set that makes no sense and isn’t worth it. Wow would they be wrong. It was so wonderful to see Torin and catch up with how the Perotti’s are doing for better or worse. I love that family so big and Vince and Sue raised a wonderful polite respectful young man that I have the pleasure to call my friends. It didn’t hurt to see several other familiar faces to boot and I know that I missed some too. I love you kevin thanks for help with the tickets. And the thanksgiving guidance as well. Amazing gravy. But the real reason it was so totally worth it. Holy bat shit fucking monster Jeff moments. The visions was simply masterfully poignantly and hauntingly delivered. Chills down my spine. Tears welling up in the corridors of my eyes and soul. Haunting memories of past Visions and just so happy to be able to say that Whitney isn’t just vision or memory that haunts my mind but a loving constant to share life’s journey towards all things love and beautiful and sad and sorrowful and joyous and tumultuous. A life partner that I never thought I’d find deserve or even get a glimpse of what that means. We have a surprise for our friends love ones and community. Close to our one year anniversary and Whitney and Baracco’s birthday New Orleans. It’s crazy but when they followed the Visions with Saturday night I was pretty much ready to start driving back to Orlando. It’s daddy’s princesses 7th birthday today and we have plans for magic and kingdoms. We was just a couple short steps from the door when Whitney and I decided we couldn’t just vaporize but needed to say good bye to Torin. They then dropped into Superman Jeff moment. Dark Star absolutely delivered on the Dew more tears and emotions. The song was playing on a random playlist in the delivery room guided by one prompt Grateful Dead the very moment the delivered Delilah Jo via c section out of Whitney and into the world. The words I thought I heard a baby cry were echoing as my baby let out her first cries. I feel ever so blessed to gotten to experience this moment with my favorite band and in the presence of several familiar faces. I could not be anymore Grateful for that moment to allow the tears to fall from my eyes and see the tears fall from mommas as we danced into a very needed very warming and life sustaining and affirming embrace. I love you Whitney and I love you Delilah. Unfortunately the return to Orlando was not without event. As little Ricky jr was awake and feverish in bed with grandma. A quick yo CVS and some ibuprofen and we got the boy to sleep in mommas arms but we will see how that impacts and plays out for the magic and kingdoms tomorrow. As for now I must say goodnight. Take one big swig a whiskey and couple puffs on a blunt and try to drift off into sleep. I am so truly fortunate and blessed to have such a beautiful life and family and friends. It’s crazy how I got here. Without love in the dream it will never come true…. I should really proof read before posting but fuck it is on get the gist of it.

Layla was acoustic

Happy Birthday brother and big congratulations. Your hair looks great in the wedding picture. I hope you enjoyed your birthday. I’m sure we will see you soon if not sooner we will catch some Florida shows.

I love that I got you guys talking even if I feel it’s somewhat tongue in cheek and mocking me. Love you guys. So glad to hear you can enjoy whatever space you’re in in the moment. Please let Nicole know Whitney and Rick wish her a happy birthday. love is real And yes Brian a really magnificent day to be alive.

I must say that it is absolutely stunningly beautiful in Crete (island of Greece) this time of year. We like it so much we probably will return with kids and stay at resort next door. Our resort is adults only but same ownership has resort next door with water park that allows kids.

Clapton Nashville that was powerful powerful stuff. The guys still got it. Still got chops power stage presence. However stiffest crowd I’ve seen at a live music performance I mean ever. This crowd was seated all the way no dancing. It was crazy. Cause the music was powerful and maybe it’s just me but powerful music flows through my heart and soul straight through my bones and body. It makes me move.

9/27/81 filler love the one your with piece of my heart

Lisa brought the universe down singing masters of war. Epic epic. Secret weapon.

It was a pleasure to see you last night Huck

I think Ed would do a fantastic job as the next captain of this ship. Thank you so much for all the hours and years you’ve spent dedicated to the DSO community Ron. The forums has been an integral part of my life for many many years now and we have you to thank for that.

I wonder if that was a typo cause it’s funny either way. Dead end company?

Just a shameless plug for a talented friend. If you can’t make jeezum crow go see Karl’s Garcia band in new hope. We will be there before heading to Dso Schenectady. I’ll give free dance lessons.

So I’m still just devastated. A little angry. Rude and I were brothers. We caught lots of shows together. We rode together on several runs. We did some West Coast stuff that put us in Vegas at some point. He rode out to catch the Boston 69 show that a little birdy had til us too following Jubilee one year. I drove him back to Kentucky on my way back to Colorado. Hell we found way to help each other fund these crazy rides. During this ride, I convinced him to go out on his own and start his own business. I eventually saw him kick some pretty serious habits. He tried to help with some of mine. JohnA I was supposed to come with Rude to that Bourbon and audiophile session. Fate would have it that a buddy from the show from the night before could only stay for the 2nd set if I drove him back to Santa Cruz the next day. im sure you guys remember that time Rude put together that bad ass house in black mountain for a bunch of us. Some of us did Pocahontas and some of us just did the 2 black mountain over 4 days or something. Epic epic time. We just had so many good times together. We had epic back forths on here in the Sports section. Being an eagles fan and him being a Cowboys fan definitely gave my pleasure over the past 10 years getting under his skin. We’d also go at over SEC football. He basically funded my trip to New Orleans for DSO when Dark star played Whitney’s birthday show on its 40th anniversary. Have gave her a ride back to the Carbondale area when she agreed to stay with me when her friends were headed home for more New Orleans fun. Rude and I weren’t in a good place when he passed and that rough for me. I knew the next time we saw each other we’d be laughing smiling and telling inappropriate jokes like nothing happened. I know we were brothers and life long friends. im gonna miss you man.

I’ve been trying to work myself into the right space to share here and just feeling too much when I think about it. On my way to Kauai today for 6 nights I hope and believe that the sound of the waves and the feel of the sand will center me so I can truly share stories about a person who meant so much to my life. We had more good times coming brother. The darkness was gonna give. I just can’t believe that those times have been taken from us. I hope to see you again on the other side. You challenged me. Cared for me. Insulted me. Supported me. Changed me. I’m not sure you even knew just how much you impacted my life and I know I did some of the same for you. We were cut from the same cloth kind caring good spirited ass holes.

Rude’s gone

Ya heartbroken but also pissed off confused some disbelief. I’m not sure if I’d hug him or sock him in the jaw right now but I do know I won’t get to do either.

Lots of emotions right now. You were loved.

I mean the ledges and more for jgb and to show Whitney a place that means a whole hell of a lot to me but no complaints getting hyryder too. It helps that the ledges is right around where we will be with the RV at the time.