Masons Child

Funny thing is I didn’t know that was our pod. Don’t get me wrong. Rude could be kidding we were so late I got told by whitney are friends are upfront. When we got there there was staff but no one with wrist bands or ticket scanners. The one security guy eventually just gave me the quiet nod and light wave. I knew it meant just go.

We saw Melli. We got there with 40 min to go. Came in at forever young. I cried foe herdy carrying my little one down the hill. Then we found that front center pod and joined a familiar spot amongs family. I didn’t get to dance like I want to. I had to hold the nugget the whole time. She was too shy to be put down and cold. She did open up over disco pizza in pats new school bus.

Dude we were kicking Dylan hard on way out here. Slow train coming. Ballad of a thin man. Listened to the Maggie’s farm from Newport festival 65. You know. Dylan goes electric.

I’m gonna try to corner the hippie vax card market. I need a supplier of high quality vax cards. Scannable. In the system.

She also cried at me for a half hour cause we was out of applesauce. Ron showed up to my place shortly after Delilah’s birth and dropped off a huge box of diapers for us. Ron wasn’t much for kids. He certainly was no baby sitter but he loved me and loved my family.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for Ron. This weekend certainly was for him. I love you brother. And love has no end. My little one just came to me as I shedded a few tears. She said what’s matter daddy and gave me a huge hug.

I would love to join you guys. I will reach out to Vegas.

We are going. We should all throw down on a big place to stay at.

This could be fun

I was there.

We currently have a JK era show on where they do race is on and run for the roses. Also has a visions and a so many roads

I’m actually starting to wonder if the actual science would prove that we actually have killed more people but trying to flatten the curve. We could’ve reached herd immunity with natural antibodies. If we never shut down, I think more people would’ve died upfront but I think we might be past the dying now. I have no way to model it or prove it but I’m convinced more and more everyday that we made the wrong decision. Now we have to accept that we don’t have the freedom to challenge their mandates. We gave that up.

You can’t hear it when he plays but he is still in quite some pain after the show and while playing. Rob really does deserve quite a bit of praise for playing through the pain.

Moksha medicine

In Huxley’s the island, their treatment of death was very unique compared to what we usually experience here in the United States. For one, they gave the dying as the past a psychedelic but they also encouraged not just immediate family members but other members of their clan to sit with and go through the death experience with their loved one. Don’t remember the details verbatim but it was very important for them to view death as this transition and for both the old and the young to experience it and go through it together. Apparently huxleys wife injected him with LSD as he was passing.

Grief is really private and we choose who to really share it with. I take the most painful moments alone. Like crying in the car. I think toph saw me cry for the first time in 4 years during this. He may have been wrong but my dad taught me to hold up my head up high and be strong for others in life’s toughest moments. I never saw my dad cry. Shows on the horizon. I will share my grief and my joy with the music through the expression dance. I will allow myself to open up to all of life’s emotions and leave it all on the dance floor. We won’t talk about grief when I’m done. Just smile into the night. Laugh. Share stories again. Remember to turn on love light and let it shine. Rocky Mountain Grateful Dead revue shows are coming.

Sold out makes me feel better about this. I drop toph off at her dads on the 30th. Fly home from saint Louis the 31st. Just miss being in St. Louis for this event.

Tea, love you brother. Grief sure does suck. Pain sucks. My mom has entered what we call hospice care although still at home. Hospital bed in living room. No more treatment. Nurses 21 to 22 hours of the day. We are getting to say good bye but we don’t have to much time left. Not sure I know your exact struggles brother but I know I love you and I support you and that love will see us through.

I could see us making this. Planning shows is tough right now. My mom situation is worsening. If I go to the East Coast and do things other than visit with mom especially go see music, my other siblings and family members have feelings about it. And maybe they should. I have feelings about it to that’s why I need this music to carry me through. I will most likely see you there but can’t commit right now.

I texted herdy today. He responded. Thought that was pretty good for that donkey in his birthday.

I agree with you more than you know. I’m just willing to play the game to see shows. I was never for shut downs, quarantines, stay at home orders, or mandatory anything but that battle has been lost. I was in the minority. By the same token I’m not for mandatory anything, I do believe it’s up to the business owner to decide who to service. If they want to refuse service if your not wearing a mask, they should be free to do so.

I saw the Schwag at a mask required show. I did feel the need to take the mask off and gulp for air at times but no one was passing out. Honestly, I don’t think it was the mask that created my desperate need for air situation. My cardio has gone to shit during the pandemic. Mask or no mask I think I would’ve been out of breathe. If wearing a mask brings back live music, I’m all for wearing a mask and going to shows.

We will be there Saturday. No kids. They will be in Carbondale. Delilah may be in local hotel with baby sitter. We shall see.

Postponed again.

My sister and mom mostly chose the play list but we did Dylan’s forever young at my dads funeral. You could have Jerry performing it. May god bless and keep you always... thought 12 years later still makes me cry. 11 years I’ve been listening to days between a lot during my moms fight with brain cancer. she still fighting it’s not the dead but I’ve always loved Will the circle be unbroken