It takes great strength and grace to put yourself out there like that. I completely understand the sorrow of letting others down but "... to thine own self, be true." We simply cannot hide and many still die trying.
I got a ways to go to be the man I know I can be but I've had to remind myself every day that "I'm 100% *!@&# worth it - even if when feel like I'm not.
Love you brother - here's to the best chapter yet!