Tea, love you brother. Grief sure does suck. Pain sucks. My mom has entered what we call hospice care although still at home. Hospital bed in living room. No more treatment. Nurses 21 to 22 hours of the day. We are getting to say good bye but we don’t have to much time left.
Not sure I know your exact struggles brother but I know I love you and I support you and that love will see us through.