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I FINALLY got a taste of some live GD-esque music this weekend. It felt really, really, really, really, really, really, really bleeping excellent to be back in the saddle - even if the musicianship was a far cry from DSO's collective chops. It was also really, really, really, really, really, really great to meet some new friends and dance the night away! Like a breath of the freshest air there is... I know I should be grateful to be alive with a healthy immediate family and a job BUT this last year has been so very tough on me - on all of us I'm sure. Innocence lost, love lost, family lost, lost family, respite lost. It all makes me so sad that it's hard to get up in the morning to face the day. Sorrow used to be an occasional visitor in my life but now it's moved into our spare bedroom and often takes over for days and days at a time. Grief is a very strange animal - I wish it would just go. People tell me I need to let it run it's course but it often feels like touching a hot stove. When it's not burning me, it feels like being alone in a boat that's sinking during a rainstorm - in the middle of the ocean. I guess I have to hurt in order to heal, right? Sorry for the therapy blog - if I keep it in, it literally eats me alive from the inside out. LIVE music won't be the sole reason that I make it through the maze I'm in but I'm certain it will help me reach a more comfortable place/perspective. It was really nice to smile again and to leave my trials and tribulations alone - even for just a couple hours. I'm looking forward to the peace that this music can bring me and sharing that joy with some amazing people.